New Life

Assalamualaikum . I just hoping to update my blog weekly but I just have nothing to share about. Maybe I can’t write, or maybe I don’t have any idea in my mind whenever it comes to writing. It’s just not my nature to write.

Many things gonna change in my life next month because I’m not going to live alone anymore. I’ll be staying with my sisters and I do think it’s a good idea when it comes to live with family. One of the reason is they can control us even I prefer not to be control but I’m not even a social guy and I bet it’s not a biggie for me. But family is all I got so it’s a good start for me.

When I think back about my independent life back then, I experienced living without family since my high school and speaking the truth I like that better. When I’m around my family, I feel that I’m being controlled and I hate that even I know my mom love me so much but I bet many guys just like me. We just don’t like it. At hostel school, I feel more freedom because I can hang out with guys, talking our stuff, learn about friendship, studying with them and do many things together and it was fun and new to me. As I can picture myself back then, I’m a guy with nothing special and I guess until today I just a nothing guy. Please don’t say me worthless I might be hurt.

After school, I still live at hostel but it’s a bit different environment from before. As a college guy, looking quite geek at first but manage to find good friends and they all accept me as the way I am and I’m not feel down whenever I’m with them as I’m being myself all the time and that's what make me happy. And I still feel a tie within all of my friends there. It’s not much but I just can feel it and I still do keep in contact with them.

After college, I’m staying at home and working there for a while and it was okay at first but something just missing whenever I’m home. I mean I just don’t fit living there. As I said before, I hate being controlled. Then, one friend of mine asking to seek a job at the big town and that was when a real independent life of me begin. I mean I’m not using my parent’s money anymore and I need to seek it for myself. It’s a hard journey for a young guy like me that have no experience to begin and lack of many things and that was the hardest part of my life. I keep seeking for a job that can fit me but until now I still don’t find it. It just something wrong somewhere with me. But now, even the job isn’t fit well with me I still can breathe. Even not too well, but it’s enough for me to be grateful to Allah.

The other thing about my life next month is I’m going to study again after almost than two years I left. I wonder how can I face this challenge again. Plus, I’m doing the part time program which is I don’t need to attend class as much as before but I have to manage my time to balance between study and work. The two hard tasks that going to make me headache soon. But I believe in myself that I can do it. I gonna make it and God please make me strength. Amin.

The perks of being a wallflower

Yeah! Me reading the same book as Emma but with different cover. But no worries, it's the same book somehow. Don't judge the book by the reader! Kidding!

Hell yeah! I never expect that “The Perks of being Wallflower” by Stephen Chbosky that I read for fun is going to release in theater! OMG! This is great! And you know what make me feel freaking excited is EMMA WATSON gonna be there! I’m so much in love with her! I don’t know whether she’s gonna play Sam or Mary Elizabeth on that movie but I bet she’s gonna play Sam. For some reason, she’s the main actress then I think Elizabeth character as not much as her. So, Emma -> Sam! I think it’s gonna be okay.

Ok, stop talking about this famous Hermione Granger. I’m going to write a bit about what I FEEL after reading this book. It’s not a REVIEW. Two different things I guess and I won’t describe it between those. Actually, I don’t think the book is very interesting. It just the type of book that I can read because it’s not heavy, I mean heavy stuff that the readers doesn’t need to imagine too much like fantasy or horror types. It just a life of a guy, diary alike and I do recommend this book for guys. It does suit for guys seriously. I find it interesting when Charlie saw her sister doing sex but he doesn’t have clue about that. And I think it’s funny. It is not a teenage drama story and you boys don’t be worry if you hate that kind of book. It just a normal life of a young guy. Some kiss scene, teenage party, gay love and sex scene that you’ll find in this book. I think it’s normal for western lifestyle. It's just based on my perception because that's what I see on tv and movie.

I just can’t wait to see this movie that will release in this year soon and I better get ready to remark on my calendar. I hope it will be release in the middle of the year. Bye! 

A bachelor dream storylines

Oh goodness! I proved to myself that I’m still a man a while ago. It’s been a long time since I do something good like that. It’s not good for health and mind but hey I just want to confirm something to myself and the result is totally positive that I AM A MAN! 

Ok, enough writing bullshit and let just back to the main topic. I wish I could just have life with my own plan but hey I’m just a human and as a human being I can’t control what has this life already setted up for me. But I enjoy dreaming and I’m wishing for the best so that I can try to achieve what I can while I still have the chance. Even though the life is unfair to us sometimes we have to keep on going and trying till the end and do not let the chance go that will make us regret soon later.

A role as a man is not an easy job. For me, as a man point of view there’s so much thing to think about and we need to plan about the future. Having a family is a dream for all people, man or woman, we just have the same desire about that. But for sure living a life is not an easy task, the trouble will come to us one by one or it might come just at one blow. As example, most basic about living a life is money. Without that, we can’t go shopping, having a car and shelter, also feeding the kids. But now I’m not going to elaborate about that entire thing that will make me damn pain headache! I just think too much.*Poor guy*

First, the important about my dream is living alone without any interruption from others. I like the MYOB concept. I’d like to have a home where I can live, sleep and eat. I want a nice house which is I got the biggest room attached with the bathroom that not require me to share that to any of the housemate. I can clean it up all by myself without any worries about the muddy that can be smear by the housemate. I hate sharing! Euww! 

The second thing is I’d like to have a car, I mean MPV. A big one. That can load in much people in it at once. But actually my dream having a big car is I want to take all of my family to trip and travelling together that would be such a great experience for us. My mom would be happy for that.

Third, I want to have a great job and good salary that only require me to work in the office hour range time only. Not more than that. But it would be great if lesser than that. I just want a job that require me to stay in the office without interacting with the customers because I hate communicating with them. Also, I don’t like travelling job because I hate being on the road. Stuck in the jam and seeing accident it would be bad for my health and eyes. The trauma being on the road makes me bloody migraine.

Next, my dream life after work is working out at gym, reading books about motivation and religion. Also, I like studying foreign languages. I want to learn Mandarin, Korean, Japanese, Thailand, and Filipino and not to forget Arabic. I like to study those languages on my weekend. Watching movies every week at cinema would be great. I also get crazy about shopping and I wish to have clothes with a good brand and I wish to spend my little money on that each month. 

Plus, I love to have a good body figure that would attract the people. WTF? Scratch that! I mean to wear good clothes that would make me even more handsome. *I'm not handsome at all!* Good health can be gain from working out dude. Having a good body always be my dream. I’m sick of having a skinny body that me myself not to dare to stare it with my own eyes. And actually, I don’t dream to have a big muscle like Malek Noor and such people that have a really nice body, I just want to look nice.But have nice figure is a sexy! Oh yeah! Haha. I really envy for those have a nice figure without going to gym and I wish to exchange that with you! Nope! Just kidding.

Malacca, Malaysia Historical City

Finally I’ve been to Malacca unconsciously! WTF? Scratch that! Actually it’s without proper plan and quite rush decision. I don’t think I can go there in this period of time. For me, travelling require tons of money that I want to have fun, snapping photos and shopping. But, this time I just go some sightseeing and meeting friends.

There are many things that change a lot since my last visit and actually I just remember nothing about my past visit since I was a kid back then. Even we not going to many places but I had so much fun by snapping and chatting but got little sad about the food cause we just having something normal for lunch because what I’m thinking is travelling is about to try something unique and the special of the tradition about that place and also it’s quite late to call it lunch but big thanks to Rai because she paid for the meals. It’s quite embarrassed to let the girl pay for the food but hey it’s not a date and I think I’m a guest and she’s the host so it’s ok for me to think of that way. But it does sound I’m such stingy! Bad guy.

Hi! It's me!!!! This is my first time revealing my own photo in this blog. I'm quite excited about this 'cause there has been a long time since my last camwhoring. Bitch! Lol.

This is Eyda, we're from same hometown and school but we gotta know each other after we reached ipt. But hey relationship comes when the time is right and here we are but i don't mean we're in any serious relationship. I never think about that yet.

And the disappointed feeling comes when we got to know that the museum already closed and we just snapping at the outside only. What a waste! We came late.

That's the ship museum that we can't enter at that moment. Peace! V

Wow! The ship sure big! No wonder they keep that as a museum.

The episode of Taming Sari Tower! We got really excited riding this. We gotta see Malacca City at the top of the tower. Amazing experience!

The three tickets of us! Freaking EXCITED!

Me looking awkward at camera. Damn it!

On top of the tower! Malacca Strait

The beginning section of the three of us. That's Rai! A very nice lady.

Camwhoring time and I messing up the photo.

The V sign. For the love of peace from us to Malacca. Peace guys!

On the top again and the lenses just caught our damn excited face and it's like wtf! It does look hilarious lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Wow! Do I have to react like that? I suppose to be not. Scratch that. The twenty second birthday anniversary has come and I just like this. I’m growing, aging, maturing and I hate it all cause the increasing of that number totally scary! No I’m not speaking like a girl like I become old, I have to take care of my skin really well from now on. It’s not like that at all. What I’m thinking right now is as a guy I’ll become an adult, a man, I need to think about my future, what is my stable job, at least a car and also buying a house for my family. I know it’s very far to think about house but that’s what I think about. Family what I mean is not my parents, they already have a nice house, it’s me becoming parent, the husband, a dad. Gross! There’s too many think lingering in my mind. Gross! What? Husband? Dad? Parent? How can I think about that even I have no girl on my sight right now and I didn’t plan to seek that either for this time being.

Am I a teen? I’m writing like I’m 30s. GROSS! Teens should hang out with peeps, celebrating, having fun, get some presents. Oh, what a life! Speaking truth, I’d love to do all that but when I think about for the past years since I was a kid, my parents never celebrate it. At first, it’s nothing but kids having so much fun celebrating their birthday and made me jealous to death like I want that also, but when the time passed, it actually nothing to be celebrate. I don’t mad to my parents even I just hope for a cake but our family is modest so there’s no need for that. 

Some people take the birthday as a meaningful day for their life like the parents, lover, and friends should at least give wishes to them on that day. For me, asking for a present is CRUEL and it GROSS! WTF man! Present is a gift from the heart and the love value, not the price value. So guys, please stop asking for present and I know there’s many people doing that by asking around. What a shame! You guys not some kids anymore.

From my point of view about the birthday is the friends and family become closer by wishing and remembering about that special day. Because of this day we can keep in touch to each other back and make everyone around us become closer. What I really mean is our cruel life makes us busy all day long and without conscience we ignore our friends accidentally. This goes most to the careered and we can see they have no much time to having fun and hang out with the pals that would make the friendship connection loose.

The best present ever in my life is when I was a college student which is we playing hide and seek and they chasing me around at our hostel to BOOM me! And it’s really tiring and not fun at all! But the best part is people seem to know and notice me. What the heck they chasing me around for nothing. They’re enjoying that while I’m not but I don’t take that as bully but as a present. Every hostel students should have that kind of experience and make our friendship become strong. I love that moment and I love all my friends and family.

Thanks for all the wishes FOLKS!