1st scenario
I just got call from my friend today and I don't feel good honestly. I expect that from the start. I planned not to pick up any call from him in the first place. But my mistake was I didn't save his home phone number. So, how should I know who was calling me, then I just picked up without any hesitation. After I picked up, I never thought to hanging up so I just speak with him. I don't feel happy listening to his voice. Not because I hate him but I just can't bare it anymore. I called him. I texted him. I facebooked him. I twittered him. No reply at all! How can I not be frust up?! And after out of track of him this while, he was calling me like nothing happen, then he requested me a help? Huh? Does it make any sense? No. I don't think so. This is not the first time dude. You need to change! Change your attitude! Yes. We are friend. But where were you when I need you? But when you need me, you seek for me? No. It's not alright. It's not friendship. I have no idea what I suppose to call it.
2nd scenario
A friend that has skills with communication and speaks incredibly awesome in English requested me to check her essay and I was like, huh? Are you kidding me? Me. In the first place want her to check my grammar and whatsoever in my English paper because she herself doesn't think I'm not that good in communication neither English. So, it's quite surprising me. Then I thought it was alright since she was busy and she looks stressed up. When I look at her papers, I was fricking surprise because her grammar is TOTALLY BAD! Ohmygee!
From the both scenarios above, I think I am the one who was important and I have no confidence in myself. I think I need them, but I was wrong. They are who need me. But I'm not going to be like a King and become an arrogant person. No! I'm not that gross. But, I just don't believe in friendship somehow because I never have a good one before. All my close friends end up with like urmm I have no idea about it.